can you handle re[aly]ty? :P

heyhey, annual ball was yesterday (30/6). the council and committee have been workin their butts off the past few months and finally, all that work boiled down to just 6 hours of getting "Lost in Paradise". deco was quite nice, food was ok, and entertainment was.. hmm… well, not bad i guess. hung around till abt 12 ish and went with shergar, shahmeez and suva to hartamas square. SHISHA!! daym… that felt goood! vun, jas, isaac and the rest joined us till abt 2 something.. from there, we went to bangsar to find more shisha (since the one in hartamas had closed for the night). yummmyy!! the bangsar shisha is even nicer, and cheaper.. and erm.. blingy-er (?). hahah.. nvm.

got back to the hotel at abt 4 ish and guess who was in the room? Shaf! he was in the tub with yilyn, kim and farah… drinkin goodness knows what. thanks to him, and also myself-lah, i downed a glass and a half of that mystery "stuff". minutes later, i was laughin and laughing and then crying and ohmygawd!! haha.. it was just freakin weird. my head started spinnin and i couldnt think straight. i would start laughing, and then stop and all of a sudden bawl my eyes out in tears! WEIRD! yes, i was drunk! gosh.. how embarassin! i kept appologising and my roomies were like, "what is this girl talkin abt?". i kept saying "sorry divya, for waking u up!!". then i remember asking vun and jas to take me for a walk. i kept saying "i need to walk, i need to walk". so i recall walkin out of the hotel room abt 4 times. one of which, i sat near the windows at the lift area, lookin out at all the cars and city lights and banged my head on the glass.. urghh… seriously, i just had zero control of what i was doin. but finally, i manage to get to sleep (thank goodness!).. like at 7am!! omg… u can imagine the hangover the morning after. bleargh! well, i did say… it was ONE HELLUVA NIGHT!!

anyway, i just wanna say… erm sorry to Divya, for waking u up! i know u were really tired after the prom. (hahaha.. yes, i meant it when i said it last night). Also, to vun and jas… thanks for lookin after me when i was totally wasted. To Shaf, although he probably would never read this… erm.. thanks for stayin till i fell asleep. To yi lyn, farah and kim.. thanks for tolerating my "interesting" behaviour last night… u guys are the best! [ Room 2124 ]

its like watching a movie on tv in slow motion. every move, every step, every swing… perfecto! yes, i am talking abt bowling (again!). its soo addictive, and recently, i’ve been paying more attention to a certain bowler who truly inspires me to be better at my game. she takes her stand, walks to the target, swings her ball to the back and letting it go.. perfectly! *strike*. you can hear the pins crashing down all at once. and the thing i admire most, well.. even if there are pins left standing, or even if she misses her spare, she takes her defeat well. a humble winner at all cost! winning well is one thing, but learning how to loose well is another. now that seperates a true champion from the rest!

i have a sudden love for airports and being in the plane when it takes off and lands. which is soooo weird and yet, so me.

last wed, went with dad to singapore in hopes of doing some shopping and at the same time, picking up a nice dress for prom. went from shop to shop, lil boutique to mall to even designer shops (which was obviously unaffordable!), and with hardly any luck and very little time, i came home ALMOST empty handed. i did buy abt 7-8 tees, a couple of earings, nice new adidas superstars (in GOLD!) and a skirt and black dress from Guess. i did see this purple sequined halter dress from BCBG which until now, i still regret not buying! (it was $289 and at that time, seemed like alot of money). i pictured myself being the host of the show "big boutique" on discovery channel 11 (nadia hates that channel), scouting for the perfect outfit in an environment new to me. all in all, the singapore sales werent anything really to shout abt. things were CHEAPER than usual, but not necessarily CHEAP!

came back from singapore on friday and went down to muar on saturday for granny’s 84th. not all the relatives were back from overseas which pissed granny off a lil. the dinner was good and lots of ppl turned up. NOTE TO SELF: NEVER EVER eat too fast and laugh too much and drink WAY TOO much wine during a function, etc. Gawd! i woke up on sunday morning with a very painful stomach and a headache and as usual, being me, i thought i was going to die! came back to kl after lunch on sunday and spent the remainin evening sleepin. i felt much better on monday (thank God!), and hmm.. where was i? oh ya, had a circle k meeting and met up with nadia and ping.

tuesday, 5am, woke up to catch the 8.30am flight to Langkawi! followed mom on her little trip there to check out the location for the conference she was hosting and to do a lil shopping. the resort was very kampung-ish.. nice, relaxing, and lil spooky! shoppin in langkawi, i’d give it a 3/10 rating. theres nothing to buy there other than lil engraved keychain thingi’s with the words "langkawi" and just tons and tons of chocolate! (duhh!). chocolate there is like super duper cheap. mom bought some for the office, and some for home.. (hersheys and cadbury and what not). took the 9.30pm flight back to klia and got home abt 11ish. (yes, it was a day trip.. and a very TIRING one indeed). but i did have fun though, spending some "quality time" with mom.. while listening to her complain abt her useless officers *sheesh*.

so yeap, thats basically what i’ve done the past few days. i’ve got a bowling tournament this sunday, and prom the following thursday (29th!) till then, cheers!

You come to a place,

Where you hardly know a face,

Things seem fine,

Till u find out more with passing time,

Although you don’t know the true person behind the mask.

You dare not seek, you dare not ask.

Because around you,

People aren’t exactly who they seem to be,

Everyone is playing a role,

Everyone is not who you see,

As time goes by,

You start to realize,

The same people that you thought you knew,

Turned out to be the worst ever imaginable, almost untrue

Then you question yourself,

Why wear a mask and why fake your true self?

Just be who you are,

Don’t try to be somebody else,

Of course there are those,

Who are always by your side,

During the worst of times,

They try to make everything right,

Well, I’m just thankful,

For I am who I choose to be,

I’m not going to change for others,

I just want to be me.

Well, blogs have been the hot topic this week. Just one single post can create a whole lot of controversy and critism (and also some advice here and there) from the opiniated. I think its good that ppl are open abt their issues in life, but sometimes.. maybe we should keep certain things to ourselves. Blogs are very open and public things. Before writing a post, you gotta think abt reactions of others. Unless you really dont care what others have to say. Just be prepared for the feedback and comments. Afterall, thats the main purpose of the "post comment" section of the blog. I really dont know what to say. Blogs are scary things!! Whatever it is, hope everyone sorts out their problems and their priorities. Dont let friendship be affected just by a single post. If it has, I’m sorry.

When someone said count your blessings now

For they’re long gone

I guess I just didn’t know how

I was all wrong

They knew better

Still you said forever

And ever

Who knew

Annoying! Plain AH-NOYYYINNGGGGG!!!!

Dude, what happened to "just be urself"??

I guess at the end of the day, [insert name] has crumbled under peer pressure and has totally lost [his/her] identity! *roar*.. oi! tolong la… ur seriously pissin me off dude! What happened to the good times?

Ever since u started mixing around with [insert name(s)].. haihz. Some where in there… i know, deep down, there is a good person. But you, u lack so so much! Cant you just get over [him/her] and MOVE ON! Not everything revolves around that person… There are so many more better things in life!!

Dude, get a clue! For everyones sake!