can you handle re[aly]ty? :P

I remember saying these couple of things to someone once before. Not too long ago actually.

• its really not just about the things you say, but also the things you do. words are so easy to say. sometimes meaningless…
• you’re just someone i really wanna be with. such a sweet talker but in a good way. i didnt think i would know so fast. but its just how i feel.
• yes. but can you promise me one thing? i’m not gonna ask you to love me forever… but pls dont ever lie to me..

Whats with the emo flashback? Well, i guess Wales does strange things to ppl! =P

Its been over two months since my last post. Things have changed quite alot actually since that "incident". I just checked back at the date i posted the last entry, and to my surprise, something wonderful and unexpected happened exactly a week after that. Wow.. how things have changed. I havent blogged in awhile because maybe there just hasnt been anything to talk about. No wait, thats a lie. I usually only blog when something bad/good/exciting has happened and i want the world to know. But nothing of that sort has happened either. Wait, thats another lie. Okay, so yes, tons and tons of good/bad/exciting etc things have happened. Sandesh is right, I do tend to keep alot of things to myself and not tell anyone. Perhaps thats why i talk in my sleep. All that surpressed anger/emotion/opinions/thoughts/etc.

So anyway, as you probably already know, i’m now in the UK! =) In Wales to be exact. Well, Aberystwyth. Not Cardiff. No, i didnt get into Cardiff. Yes, i should have studied for my A Levels Law paper. Gosh, the things i’d do differently if i could turn back time. Actually no, i dont really regret any of it much. Not even ‘him’. Cos its made me open my eyes to all the stupid f’d up assholes out there. Hahah. No, i’m not calling him that. Its just eye-opening and in a way, a lesson that i’ve learnt before it became too late.

So, what was i saying? Oh yes, Aberystwyth a.k.a Aber (for all you ppl who dont know how to pronouce ‘rystwyth’.. btw, its ah-ber-wrist-with)! I’m here now, doing the first year of my law degree. My flats not too bad. I’ve got 3 flat mates, 2 guys from Norway and a girl from KL. Haha… they’re all really nice and decent ppl. And thank god they’re neat! =) My room (as Nadia would put it) is slightly smaller than the matchbox-of-a-room that i have back at home. Its alright. I’ve done the usual, decorated the walls with pictures of home <3, and put my colourful pillows on the bed that brightened up the room a little. I’m really getting used to this room. It wasnt that great at first, but now, hmm… its really starting to grow on me. So is the uni. And the place itself. And the ppl too. Met a couple of ppl here. I just dont have that enthusiasm to meet and mingle and make friends right now. I mean its lovely meeting all these ppl, but sometimes i just want to get on a damn plane and fly back home. Its the homesickness. Everyone feels it. I’ve spoken to so many ppl and not a single one denies that they’re homesick. Its normal. Just need time to settle down, get into my routine, and hopefully start to embrace uni life a little more.

I hate the showers in my flat. The tap wont off after you’ve had a lovely hot shower and since its so difficult to turn it off, you end up turning the tap till its freezing cold. I actually love the weather here. Lots of ppl complain saying that its too cold. But i LOVE the cold. I love that icy feeling (and no, i’m not an icy person!) I just love it. And you know what else I love? I mean… who else? Sandesh! Haha… okay maybe not exactly the best thing to put here. But wtv, i’m glad that we both wanted to do the long-distance. I miss him tons and tons though! =( and you know what else i miss? My morning NASI LEMAK WITH AYAM GORENG at Devi’s, Bangsar with Nadia! Damn! I love that rm5.50 stuff! See, i even remember the price! Oh nasi lemak, nasi lemak…. i’d give up potatoes for nasi lemak! Shit, the amount of potatoes i’ve got in the kitchen. And its so like jelak already. I’m so sick of roastedpotatoes/ potatoeswithcurry/ potatoesinsoup/ potatosalad!! Haha… nvm. Ignore that.

OOOH!! I’m so proud of myself. I actually touched and cleaned and cooked chicken that day. Had to remove all the icky skin and all. OOOH!! And i did my own laundry too! =) See… there’s so many things that were taken for granted back home. I’ve learnt quite abit abt life. Just a tiny bit. There’s so much more left to learn. I love the Aber seafront. Esp at night. Its so romantic when the waves ride all the way up and you hear that "swooosh" sound. It’ll be lovely to just cuddle up to your loved one and sit on one of the benches there, staring out to the sea and talking about everything. Gosh, i miss home. And yes Nadia, I miss you too! Haha.. and my family.Vun, Jas, Isaac, Nick, Arafat, Lisa, Vila, Shmz, Ajay, May… everyone! But we have to go our own separate ways. That doesnt mean we wont be friends anymore. I mean c’mon! Nadia and I talk on Skype so often i’m like so sick of her face! Speaking of feeling sick, i miss Cla too! Haha. Hope everyone at home is doing great. I’m alright here. Managing and coping, life gets a little slow in this part of Wales. But its honestly really starting to grow on me. Take care everyone, hope you’re having a really good time wherever you are in the world. Love lots!

Its been awhile since my last post. Thank God my chicken pox has cleared pretty well =) Anyway, alot of things have been happening. I’m not gonna lie and say that i’m over it and that i’m okay. Because i’m not. I still hear new things every day about (insert name) and it does upset me. But what i can say is that i am slowly getting better day by day. My friends have been there for me countless of times from the very beginning and i’m so so thankful to have these people by my side. I’ve really learnt so much from this. Seen people for who they truely are and not what i THOUGHT they were. Well things now with (insert name) are um.. blank. blah. bleargh. Haha. Wtv la.. i miss bowling =( Damn my sprained back (which thankfully is much better now)! I miss the way things used to be. Our usual outings to (insert place) and the early morning (insert activity). The games of blackjack that would somehow involve bettings of 1sen coins, butterfly pins, italian currency and even hairclips. His friends have been wonderful to me, however dissapointed at him. I look forward to Sept18th, the day i HOPEFULLY fly off to Cardiff for uni. I’m gonna miss all my dear friends here. Aiyo Nadia, what am i gonna do without u la woman? You better do the 1+2 degree at Help aight? =) I’ll save a spot for you in my future apartment etc. Then i’ll make you tuna sandwiches and cook chik-ku-teh for you! Haha. Right now, i want a clean, fresh start. A new country, new experiences, new people. Leave all the shit behind. Hopefully my ALevel results are good enough for that! (results are out online on the 16thAug!) Anyway, I believe in karma. And boy, it will come back one day and bite you in the ass. Just wait and see. Till next time, have a nice life (insert name) and no, things between us will never be as they used to!

I blame it on karma? bad luck? ‘perfect’ timing?… i dont know. But a couple of days back, i started to get these reddish spots on myself. Had no idea what they were and so, my dear intelegent family came up with a few theories.

1. Dad (the supposedly DOCTOR in the hse! sheesh!!) blamed the weather! *wow! why didnt i think of that! geee…. cos its a dumb theory!!!* … anyway, he claimed that its been fluctuating like nuts lately that one minute u need your umbrella and the next u want to take all your clothes off (because its hot)! Thanks dad, that REALLY helped. *note the sarcasm…
2. Mom dearest said that "ohh.. maybe Myrna (the maid) used too much or too little washing powder/conditioner when washing the bed sheets. maybe its a bed bug thats biting u!"… that is sooo mom! *sigh.
3. My own theory? Maybe its the new facial wash i’m trying out. You know Watsons has come up with their own line of facial and body products… mom decided to try them out cos they smelt really good and were dirt cheap! thus my theory, "cheap things made in THAILAND could possibly cause red spots!!" I had this plan of exposing Watsons and doing a whole "before and after" story on how the product is a fake and posting it to the local newspaper! thank God i found out the real cause ..

Ladies and gentlemen…. do u know that chicken pox can still occur in people my age? Yes, of course you do. But who would have freaking thought of that. Everyone assumes that you get chicken pox when you’re really little and your immune to it for life. Thus, no one suggested ‘The Pox’ when i asked for their opinion. Geez… this thing was spreading like wildfire. Okay, not really. But i was getting pretty worried, and me being me… i thought i was going to .. hmmm.. die. Yes, die. For like the 5th time!! Anyway, went to the hosp, got the GP on duty to check it out and he confirmed i FINALLY had the Pox. F*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck!!!! PERFECT TIMING i tell u!! Exams restart on tuesday next week (the 5th!) and its Statistics 1. Econs is on that same week, Fri. *sigh*

Now, judging from the way its going… i am 100% isolating and quarantining myself from the world. Initially i just didnt wanna bother and do my usual thing. Ampang, futsal, bowling, college library… wtv u know. But gosh, its hard waking up in the morning not recognising yourself. Therefor, to Shaun Boey, i’m sorry but i have to excuse myself from teaching you Stats. (aiyo.. malu la Shaun! but Nadia is chickenpox-free and her stats is awesome!! =P). To ermm… everyone else? Happy studying u lucky f*cks.. (oops ok i didnt mean that! but *sighhh…. why la why!!!*). Gluck for the exams ppl!! WIsh me a speedy recovery!! (I even asked the Doc to double my dosage! he gave me a funny look …=S ) like REALLY REALLY REALLLY SUPPPERRRR FAST BEFORE THIS FRI cos i need Ms Foo to come give me more Stats and Maths revision classes!!! Arghhh… That woman hasnt gotten it before either and she doesnt want to risk it because she’ll be having her wedding photo shoot the following week. Oooh… imagine having the Pox on your wedding day! F*cking hell!! hahaha… Anyway, i understand that she wants to stay away. I’d do the same too… (See Nadia!! Not EVERYONE has gotten chickenpox before!! Including Ms Foo!! hah!)…

Well, what to do what to do. This is Day 2 of the Pox invasion. Hmmm.. i wonder how many ppl i’ve already passed it on to without knowing??! Gosh.. sorry folks. If its to little kids (like the ones i saw in Kiara while bowling with Sheg and Sheena on Sat)… then you should be bloody thankful that you’re getting it NOW and not when you’re 18 yrs old like me and just about to sit for your A Levels FINALS that btw, determine if u can go to effing Uni or not =( ! GRRrrrrrr GRRRRRrrrrr!!!

Adui… wtv la ppl. I HATE EXAMS! AND GETTING SICK!! Pls pray for me!! Thankyou

Cla cla, everywhere she goes, people will stare
This ‘hot’ young thing who talks so fast, gives everyone a scare
Only Mr Chong can understand this … aiyoo.. cla cla
I dont want to do this anymore, byebye cla bear!! =P

This story about Nadia is rather funny,
People think that she’s only after their money,
Little did they know that this girl is hell-yeah wealthy,
She owns an ElGrand, an Accord, and wow! even a Myvi!

One day she took that little green thing out for a spin,
Driving around Bangsar with a big toothy grin,
Laughing at rempits that look like they came from the bin,
Little did she know, the challenge that lay ahead, she would not win.

Not once but twice did she injure a fellow two-wheeler,
She’s very good friends now with all the car dealers,
The visits to the workshop are always a ‘thriller’,
For this young lady, she’s now known as the motorcyclist killer!!

As time goes by, i hope she starts to realise,
That this quality in her is not very attractive in a guys eyes,
No matter how many weird handbags my dear friend buys,
It wont change the fact that she still endangers lives!

Okay, so I’ve been thinking about what to write next. I haven’t posted since mid Jan and its almost the end of Feb. Nadia keeps telling me to update my blog so that she can comment on it. Geez… really, that girl has nothing better to do. We’ve been reading work by Philip Larkin in Lit lately. His view on life as something meaningless and empty is just depressing. But what strikes me, is his unfailing nature to question things and leave solutions to various matters through the lines in his poems. Take for example, he stresses on the necessity of being alone/away once in awhile in order to seek clarity, discover yourself and your existence. I find somehow that I can relate to that. Going on trips overseas does that to you as no one there knows who you are or where you come from. You basically just get to escape, for a while. And then you go back to reality. But that’s life I suppose. Empty and meaningless I beg to differ. But sometimes you just need to break away from it all.

Anyways, last Sat was the reunion dinner for my dads side of the family. If I were to blog then, the title would probably have been “I fcuking hate reunion dinners!” and my reason would be that I simply do not ‘click’ with my dads side of the family. Yes, I know that they are family and we choose our friends but not our family. They’re okay I suppose. Just the whole atmosphere that night was a lil tense. First day of cny, all of us went back to muar (moms side). I actually really enjoy going back there (not the journey there, but the place itself). Shea is there and she’s such fun to be with. Grandma’s hse has a feeling of peace and calmness. And every cny, one of the best bits is playing mahjong with everyone. Its such a blast! The angpow collection this yr has sadly, decreased. Haven’t visited all the relatives yet so hopefully there’ll be more coming my way! J

Just got news from the uni’s that I’ve applied to. So far, I’ve got conditionals from Cardiff, Leeds, Sheffield and West of England, Bristol. An “unsuccessful” from Manchester =( and I’m still waiting for Warwick. Pretty excited about going to uni. Actually, I’m really really excited. Cant wait cant wait cant wait!! Hehehe.. will miss home a lot though. Ahh.. home. I’ll miss mom and dad. And yes, Alyna too. And those crazy ppl who I cant get enough of like nadia (I’m gonna miss EVERYTHING abt this girl), cla, lisa, jas, vun, brin, elaine, eunice, gagan, shahmeez, aunty Nancy, sumi, may, isaac, ajay…. And everyone else!! I’m gonna miss bowling with shahmeez & shergar (and the occasional post-bowl shisha sessions), malee, aunty nan, and the “without warning” ladies, and futsal (sandesh and gagan yelling at me), netball (may, aarthi, duckies etc.. ), hartamas square, yes.. even the atmosphere in the dsa!! Haha.., ermm… the fooood!! Oh yess! Nasi lemak, chicken rice, nasi goreng, laksa, roti canai, naan bread, tandoori, dimsum…. Ahhh.. dammn!! I’m gonna miss home when I leave!! But hmm… the shopping and sales in England… at Topshop, Dorothy Perkins, m&s, fcuk, warehouse etc.. wow!!! Heheh, right now.. I’m just enjoyin every bit of final sem in college!! J 

currently addicted to:

www.postsecret.com

< thats just in response to the title of nadia’s blog >

Anyway, i think many would agree that C3 today was a fcukin awesome paper! hell yeah! if u thought econs was good, this one was even better!! hahaha… only 1 more Lit paper tmrw to do after the long and rather tiring week. today i would have to say, was the most mentally exhausting. 3 Econs papers and as i said before, the BEST ever maths paper Edexcel could set for us to end the day! i wonder how many will be resitting C3 next sem?

well, nadia + myself + arafat (who decided to not attend the exam because he was "unprepared") + probably everyone i spoke to after the paper + a couple others = hmmm… well, lets just say that edexcel is sure as hell making alot of money fr our resits. GEEeezzz!

I noticed that my last post was early in Dec ‘o6. We’re more than halfway thru Jan and thinking back, well, to me, ‘o6 wasnt THAT fantastic. i mean, it was good no doubt. with starting college, meeting new ppl, vila comin back from canada, nad’s weird driving experiences, trips and travels around the world, but nope, to me nothing that spectacular. there just wasnt that "oomphh!" factor. dont know why though. anyhoo, ‘o7 kinda looks promising. really looking forward to going to uni at the end of the yr!!  =)

but erm.. after todays maths?!? fuck it la!

yeap.. havent updated for quite awhile. just got back fr Hong Kong yesterday, thus the title of my blog, overdose of the chinese. =P HK was goood, it was fun. full of chinese ppl thats for sure. even the shopping was not too bad. i loveee the weather there, cool breeze and all. i bought quite a few things there… my new black iPod Nano ( i wanted to get the 4GB green one cos it looked soo pretty! but decided with the 8GB black instead).. tops, shoes, flipflops, the new Sims holiday pack thingi (it costs me a bomb!! original k!), haha..a footbal (?), ermmm.. what else.. pillow covers and knitting wool(wtf???).. yea, jeans, handbags.. (oooh.. nadia loves my D&G one! =P), earings, perfumes, makeup, ermmm… just stuff basically. been travellin quite alot this yr. went to singapore earlier in the yr with dad and bought my prom dress, went to perth with the whole family for a week, then to Bangkok the following week with mom and her friends, and now, to HK. i even went to Sen Zhen in china for a lil shopping. was hoping to see the great wall of china, but to my dissapointment, it was all the way in BeiJing. will leave that for another trip. =) nadia’s lucky she didnt come along. there were rows and rows of restaurants and hawker stalls selling… u guessed it, PORK! hahaha.. roast pork, steamed pork, bbq pork… yuck! everything and anything to do with that ‘unhalal’ thing. and u know the saying abt chinese ppl, eating anything with 4 legs, its true! i didnt exactly see ppl eating dogs or monkeys, but there were some strange looking things hanging at the shop windows. =S i actually dont mind going back to HK during the winter there. all in all, it was a pretty good trip. would have loved to stay longer too… but alyna wanted to be back for her bday. anyway, a few shoutouts… happy 15th bday alyna!! and to ajay, happy belated 17th.. sorry couldnt make it for ur party. heard it was good though. cant wait for ching to be back fr perth on christmas day.. till next time.. happy hols ya all! colls out for the month.. woot! on to preps for jan exams… lalalala..

The Aussie break was good. I was kinda hoping that getting away for about a week will help me clear my mind and my thoughts. And when I get back, I’ll be able to put full focus on my studies and other important stuff in life. Turns out, I still feel all hazy and everyday just passes by like one big blur. I wake up, go to college, go for my classes (if I feel like going at that time), come home, spend time on the computer (online, playing the very addictive freecell or either typing out whatevers on my mind) till its time for dinner, sometimes I have bowling or futsal, but on days that I don’t, well… I guess I just head back to the computer or practice my piano/guitar pieces for the music concert which is on the 19th (damn!). No doubt Aussie was tons of fun, spending time with aunty kim, cat, ros, ching and even gavan… going to the vineyards and tasting all the wines, the stinky cheese factory, the yummy chocolate factory, kangaroo hunting (well, just kangaroo watching.. ), and of course, shopping!! Yes cla, I did buy ur Freddo’s for you. Hehehe… come get them one day woman!

Halloween at dsa on tues was good… a bunch of us went, Nadia and May being witches, ajay being harry potter, bal as Morticia Adams, Nisha really pulled off the Johnny Depp look from pirates, Isaac as Guy Sebastian, Jas dressed up as an Egyptian (I think) and myself as the devil.. hehee.. all in all, I enjoyed my first Halloween dress up party thingi.. Currently addicted to System of a Down’s “F*ck the System” and Gwen’s new song “Wind it Up” which has a lil flavor of the classic “sound of music” in it… fab! Stuff I got to know when I was away in Aussie has left me with lots of questions about… well, everything. The people that I thought I knew, turned out to be otherwise. And it really pisses me off when these people carry on as if their actions have no effect on others. But what the hell, karma will come back and bite you in the ass. Its just a matter of when..